December 16-17, 2024: The Danger of Delving Too Deep into Spirituality (Too Fast) & the Haunting Story of Avicii
I feel like I enter a new portal while listening to Graham Hancock and reading his books. Not entirely healthy when you do it for too long. It’s like you have to switch mental planes after you’re done dissecting this kind of material. Spiritual awakening, psychosis, actual reality(?), esotericism galore — it's too much for the mind to handle at times.
Once you start on the whole path of Carl Jung, Graham Hancock, mysticism, kundalini/third eye awakening, esotericism, akashic records, chakras... you really have to balance that with some trashy content to make sure you keep a multi-layered perspective. I will actually always maintain that you need to sort of have a robust understanding of psychology before you jump into spirituality. People need to, again, think via levels or layers.
And that’s why:
I really need someone who is very well-versed in psychology, psychiatry, and kundalini awakening to explain what was going on with Avicii before he passed. This sort of helps. Avicii's story haunts me, almost — especially after reading what his mind was going through before he died (as described in the biography “Tim” by Måns Mosesson.
Before I deleted my original YouTube channel, I hadn't really realized that I wrote so much on the community tab as a way to track my own thinking each day. It wasn't really meant to be read by people. I remember writing that I wanted to write in a way that resembled a diary that someone happened to come across. I will get back to making videos; I just feel like, when I made videos from 2021-2024, I was missing some parts to my thinking.
On that note, I will always say you need the following layers of understanding: the personal everyday for you, the cultural, the sociopolitical, the psychological, and, finally, the spiritual. And once you've delved deep into each level, you need to learn to integrate. That's what I was missing when I was making videos then. And that's why I couldn't stand having that original channel, so I deleted it without thinking twice about it. Having somewhere where I can see how my thinking progressed from year to year, month to month — even day to day — is way more important than having other people understand what I'm saying.